Glutton For Punishment

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Ok guys just stop!!

I would much rather a guy have back hair than it be prickly from shaving. Girls back me up here. Stop shaving it unless you are gonna laser hair it off. Back hair is ok. Prickly back not so much fun.

Serious question

Single guys with hairy backs - first, why do you shave it?

More importantly - HOW??? You can’t possibly do it yourself. Do you get a friend to do it? What??

I really need to figure this out. It’s bugging me!!

The confetti egg hunt was successful. Now my yard is a hot mess!

The confetti egg hunt was successful. Now my yard is a hot mess!

I’m broken …

So I just finished Whiskey Beach. A book by my favorite author (personally signed to me) given to me by the only man I have let see more than one side of me.

I haven’t let anyone in. If I meet a guy I keep things purely sexual - keeps them from having any desire to get to know the real me as guys are so easily distracted. Which in the end, keeps me from getting close to anyone. I know this - I know I have been doing it.

But I did let the guy that gave me this book in. We talked on skype for over 7 hours straight. It was something I needed more than I ever knew - but he was also safe - a good 8 hours away safe. I let him in. I enjoyed talking about myself. I enjoyed someone actually listening and actually wanting to get to know me, asking me questions - so much in ways that he paid attention who my favorite author was and sent me this book.

It was hard for me to read this book for lots of reasons - that man and I had some bumps in the road. And well me personally, I cannot read when I am bother by things, down on life. I start to read and my mind wonders. It took me longer than it usually would by a lot, but I finished the book. I am healing. I am getting better, less broken.

This book though invoked feelings in me that I hadn’t felt in a while. The thought of love or romance has been leaving me feeling bitter. I couldn’t even watch the sweet sappy Christmas movies this year. I turned off friends with benefit (the movie) when they decided to be more. I couldn’t stomach it. Love stories have made me want to puke.

But this one, two very broken people (in ways I could never imagine being broken), got past it with each other and fell in love. It was beautiful and wonderful and I felt something for the first time in a long time. I felt hope. Hope that maybe I won’t always be broken. That maybe I am getting near the end.

Of course, I’m still emo and PMSing. This whole post could be a crap shoot in a couple of days …

Oh the joys that come with being a woman.

It’s done. It’s finished. Symbolic for lots of reasons. Left me with tears in my eyes for lots of reasons. My only personalized signed book from my favorite author.

It’s done. It’s finished. Symbolic for lots of reasons. Left me with tears in my eyes for lots of reasons. My only personalized signed book from my favorite author.

Setting up an egg hunt for Kaelyn, but what’s inside Lexy will like! :)

Setting up an egg hunt for Kaelyn, but what’s inside Lexy will like! :)

@bizarr31 and I in @wildflower32 car! Ha!

@bizarr31 and I in @wildflower32 car! Ha!

It’s a windows down, Allman Brothers jammin kind of day!

It’s a windows down, Allman Brothers jammin kind of day!

Sixers

  1. I am PMSing which is making me be a girl which I freakin hate. I even wanted to go shopping yesterday and I hate shopping! I am being over emo over everything so I have been hibernating. Haven’t done a thing all weekend.
  2. Found out yesterday that the girls dad has to go to Germany AGAIN for another two weeks and leave on MONDAY! They just told him yesterday. WTF! He won’t be here for his birthday, Kaelyns birthday and they wanted him to leave Easter Sunday. This fucking company. Kaelyn is going to be freaking CRUSHED!
  3. And for some reason that boy thinks I stupid! He leaves Monday morning and wouldn’t be able to take the girls to school. I said no problem, I will just come and pick them up and take them so you can have as much time with them as possible (this has been his first weekend with them in a month!). He says, I don’t want to put that much pressure on Lexy getting Kaelyn ready in the morning. Kaelyn gets ready all by herself. Come on - do you really think I don’t know the reason you are making me keep them on Sunday is so you can spend the night with your girlfriend and get laid before you go. No worries though because you aren’t the one that has to hold Kaelyn while she cries over missing her daddy - I am. No sweat off your back. Enjoy getting your dick wet.
  4. Number 2 and 3 have a LOT to do with why I am so moody. Another two weeks of the girls by myself and he hasn’t been upping child support and I have pretty much had them all to myself for the past month. The time before last he gave me $50. Hell my grocery bill goes up more than that just to feed them for one week, let alone all the extra gas, school shit that comes up, hair crap, make-up, fuck I had to spend $100 just on freaking bras the last time, hair cuts - all that shit I pay for. 
  5. Of course being hormonal is making me want to push all boys out of my life. That’s how I roll - especially when I know I won’t be able to see them for the next two weeks again any way so whats the point?
  6. Okay, I’m done whining. Going to grannnypanties tonight for a cook out. So I will get out of the house and go have some fun and enjoy some good company. Something positive - I need that shit!
Fish tacos FTW!!

Fish tacos FTW!!